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Jul. 11th, 2007 | 11:29 pm

It's been a while since I posted, but I just wanted to thank everyone for making my birthday a really great one. The one and only birthday present I wanted with all my heart was to pass my algebra class and for a while there I didn't think it was possible, but I did it. I put a lot of time and effort into the class and I feel like I really got out what I put in. A week ago I was crying/stressing over the final, preparing for what would happen if I didn't pass the class. I was so scared and upset, but I came through.Now I have a killer internship that I Love and can't wait to go back to on Friday.

I am not out of the woods yet, but I am on the right track, finally.

I also wanted to thank my best friends. Thanks for going out to dinner with me tonight, I know you were all tired and we don't get to see each other on the weekdays too much, but it meant a lot to me that you came.

When I was finishing up this past semester at WVU I was worried that there would be this Weird transition phase coming home, its kinda hard to explain.... but it was like no time had past. I am so lucky and grateful to have you guys in my life!!!!!!

This is the first time I have really been happy in a while.....life isn't perfect, but close to it.

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May. 4th, 2007 | 09:32 pm

Say hello to ennnnndless summer!

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May. 2nd, 2007 | 10:41 pm

2 more finals left. By this time tomorrow night it will offcially be summer.

I think I am finally ready to do home

When I am here, I realize how good i have it.....kinda.

And when I am at home I realize how good I had it...kinda.

I have grown accustom to this perpetual feeling of loneliness/exhaustion. I have come to realize this these feelings will last a long while.

Being here I learned a lot I have realized how far I've come, but have also realized how behind I am and what I still need to work on.

Life is about a perpetual self improvement (as cliche as that sounds) but true.

In a place so superficial/mediorce as it is here, its also pretty awesome. I have managed to make some great friends in the process.

As much and I've grown to love this place I know its time to go home. I need to be with my home friends . I need to see them, hear them laugh. I need the AMFS.

I want to be Ny bound now.

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Dec. 2nd, 2006 | 10:22 pm

So, I decided to stay in WVU until I get my degree. I was takling to a couple of my friends here , and the work load ,lifestyle etc. is a lot easier just to stay. ANd i must say, Morgantown is starting to grow on me. Next semester I will try and switch rooms, and bring my car down so I won't feel so isolated. PLus, I really like living on my own. Finally , they have a great study abroad program for my major in....where you ask? MILIAN ITALY. Yes, every school has one but I really want to try and get into it, its been my dream for like 3294834094802398423 years.
1 week of school left and then "Dead Week" aka final week. Probably going to have to fly home, the hardest part is finding someone to get me to the pittsburgh airport, although, I think my roomate offered last time I didnt zone out when she started talking. Maybe I am bashing her a bit too much...maybe.

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Oct. 22nd, 2006 | 09:26 pm

I am so over this place.

I dont like the school
I dont like the people
I dont like the classes
I dont like the professors ( except for the two hot ones who all throughout class I keep picturing naked, they are my only reason for going).

I REALLY REALLY REALLY don't like my roommate

I want to go home soooo bad, I feel very detached from everything.

I am not coming back here next semester, I am not sure where I am going to go, but I know I don't want to come back here.

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Oct. 7th, 2006 | 11:39 pm

I find Fall to be very nice, but at the same time depressing. The leaves changing here do not compare to new york's rich and vibrant fall foliage. There is truly no place like home.
Since I have been here, I have been playing around with the idea in my head to transfer out of here next semester. Tonight I told the friends that I have made here of my plans for possibly not returning to wvu next semester. They were shocked and all very sad, which shocked me since that although they are my friends, I guess that I had never really thought of them as "real friends" as they thought of me. They didn't understand why I might leave, and although I kept telling them that it wasn't one big reason, but rather many little ones they still could comprehend it. Which kinda fustrated me and made me hold back on telling them my true feelings. They're young, and I could tell that they weren't seeing the situation from my side. Anyway this was a crappy week anyway with 3 exams and a major project due, I am glad last week is shot to shit.

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Sep. 27th, 2006 | 11:01 am

Hey ya'll
How is everyone? I am doing good. I went to maryland/washington Dc this weekend. Had a very good time. I wouldn't go back to maryland inner harbor anytime soon( not that is was bad, there just wasn't anything really there, I had to buy a book at a really cool banres and noble b.c i was bored) But I really like DC! I loved the holocaust museum, it was very well done and prolly one of the best museums I have EVER been to.
I am really starting to have a nack for traveling & deff want to start doing more of it( if i could only find the $$ but thats always the case with meh).
I miss my camera(It broke right before I came to school) i have my moms camera here but its very crappy and moody! I got some pics of my trip on my facebook of you guys want to take a lookie lou. :-) http://wvu.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2065832&id=25829030&l=14bfb

I miss the AMFS real hard.

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Aug. 29th, 2006 | 09:36 pm
mood: blahblah

Second week here, things have gotten a little bit better. Last weekend I went out with a few people from my dorm and we went bowling downtown. Had a good time, I got the highest score( i give all the credit to my RCC bowling class). I met a few more people.
I still feel as though there is something lingering around here that I dont like.Its the kind of feeling you get in your stomach when you know something isn't right, we've all had it at one point in life or another.I still haven;t found my place, my comfort zone.
I dont mean to sound pompous or anyhthing but when I have converstations with some of these guys who are straight out of highschool or who are in some of my classes, after talking to them for a few minutes, I just feel like they have nothing to offer as far as what I see is needed and what is important in a friendship.
As much as I want to meet new people and make new friends, I am not going to waste my time with someone who i know I won't have a friendship with in the long run.

I hope this works out.

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Aug. 25th, 2006 | 03:22 pm
mood: lonelylonely
music: Better Man- Pearl Jam

I sit here in my dorm room upset. I am upset and regret some choices I have made, and I am torn as to whether or not I need to, or am going to make more choices that will effect my future and my academic career.

I don't consider it home-sickness, its only been a week and although I think of my family and friends quite frequently, I do like being away and on my own. However, I just don;t know if WVU is right for me. The people here are sooooo clicky.It seems as though looks really are everything as much as you tell yourself they aren't.When you're not the most outgoing in new or unknown situations, and not really really pretty it's hard to find anyone you can really connect with.

In a world Full of oysters, it is so hard to find a pearl.

I know this is new, I know everyone gets lonely their first few weeks at school.... I am just starting to think that for what I want to do with my life-fashion logically it would be better if I studied in new york, not only with the great resources but also all the schools that have connections in the indusrty that once it came time to find a job , I could have that to fall on. Also, in-state tuition of course.

It's only been a week, and many of the programs/clubs I want to get involved in haven't started yet. It's friday evening and theres nothing I will be able to do until monday. By the end of the week I can still get 90% refund back if I do decide to withdraw. After that it's 70%.......

I will give it until thursay and I will talk to my mother tonight. And if I still feel the same way as I do right now I think WVU and I will have to part ways.

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Aug. 23rd, 2006 | 07:42 pm
mood: sadsad

I am 95% sure I dont get bravotv=Project runway in my dorm room. Tis a sad sad day....moment of silence please......

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